to fulfil the endless inquiring of my new blog, at last, i shall announce:



Warning: Read at your own risk...

met up with chun to satisfy her pizza craving..
Spizza is good i must say.

Had an interesting conversation abt money and man's nature.
Can we ever do without this medium?
Can man truly be selfless?

Well..i guess it's not possible with the kind of pple that this society has bred.

If what i want to do is make a difference, why do i feel that i'm approaching an attitude of solipsism?

finally i've set up a new, more advanced blog.. enough of lousy tabulas and its inaccessibility..seriously..half the time when i have an inspiration i cant write just coz the darn tabulas server is jammed.. heh..

biN: So when will i be ready to get back to playing competitive sports again?

Doctor: NEVER!

*biN stunned! Jaw dropped..lost for words... ...*

Doctor: HAHAHAAH!! Kidding lah! It should heal on its own, depending...might take 2-6months..

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Stupid doc...scared the shit out of me.

Well..i'm determined to get back in 2 months. Very determined.
But of course, i'm not gonna allow myself to risk a re-injury.
I have a get-back-to-training conditioning plan at hand. Just need to work on discipline for now... ...

i guess that means bye-bye to APAC..but well..there IVP waiting for me..it's time man..time to get it back..

quoting from chun..ha..but never too much for me..just 2 though..

a team bbq..and a clique movie session.

so it's a great feeling to be served afterall. somehow the relaxed mood of everyone at the bbq made me realised that our team is, slowly but surely, making some sound progress. Not only that fact dat some worries we had previously seemed diminished, the overall intensity and attitude during trainings has improved. More imptly, it doesnt feel like it's been coerced upon us. Feels like an individual effort to want to give our best, to improve, to bond as a team. Though there are still some thorns among the bed of roses, i feel alot more confident that things will turn out for the better, and not having to worry excessively.

 

Corpse bride is a great show. Simply loved it. A short movie, less than 1 & 1/2 hrs long, yet full of laughter and tears. The witty puns and literal expressions of "jaw-dropping", "dying to come down here", "widow", "keep an eye out for u" can hardly allow me to stifle a laugh, yet the emotional dialogues and intentions cant help but stir up a solemn, yet empathetic tone within. It's a marvelous show really. Tim Burton is amazing.

 

i've been thinking..wat does it mean when u say "to rationalise less"?

Then i thought, maybe it just precisely means to stop thinking whatever i'm thinking right now. Ha. Indeed, it must be.

What thought carry u no further than to the grounds of deeper sorrow. 

 

“ it’s been a while since I’ve seen u so how have u been
did u get my letter I wrote u but I did not sent
is there a chance in hell or heaven
that’s there something here still to build on
or do u just pick up the piece after they fall
but after all
there’s a light in my eyes
it’s too bright to see
and a pain in my heart where u used to be
coz I was wrong to assume
that u were waiting here for me
there’s a light in my eyes
did u leave that light burning for me…”
~Light in your Eyes, Blessed Union of Souls

I picked up the phone wanting to give u a call
Only to realise I forgot my password and I lost the card.
How silly.
But again, maybe it’s a good thing after all
Curbs the impulse
Force me to re-think my action, purpose and mentality (yeah what did I say abt wanting to be less rational?haha!)
It’s the night taking its toil on me yet again.

Nevertheless, do hope u r doing well.
And dat u’ll like the little late gift from me.
Do take care..
if u get to see this.

"A feeling of sadness and longing that is not akin to pain, and resembles sorrow only as the mist resembles the rain. "
~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

a simple life, without complications..

sounds good to me.

Am savouring every bit of this solitude and tranquility.

Or am i doomed to deal with complexities?

That i thrived in the face of them and simply vanish into non-existence drifting into meaningless in the absence of them? 

seems like essentially there's no difference betw "loneliness" and "solitude".

The line is only drawn in varied contexts and perspectives.

Reading too much indeed.

I should just indulge while i can. 

For ignorance is blissed;

Out of sight, out of mind;

and it only takes one outside the box to see how foolish it must have been to be inside of it. 

The conclusion of Pesta Sukan Cup 05 that yielded yet another predicatable result.

Before the game, or even the first few mins, it seems like the game cld go anyway:

Either a closely-matched game;

Owls' first decent victory over Moosezettesz;

or a trashing by Moosezettesz to deny Owls' winning streak.

 All three results were, in a way, what i desired from different pespectives. And of coz, only one of em can be actualised in this game.

I must say moosezettesz were deserving winners, putting up such a gd play in this game. However, Owls certainly ought to have given a better fight with the potential that they have. Is it once again the mental weakness? That they simply crumple and collapse in tha face of the undefeated champions?

Despite all, i must say dat i'm very touched when Wilna n Karen came up to me to ask dat qn after the game. Ha! Real sweet of em..

Am looking forward to a new season of floorball, of a stronger Jupitans, of a bunch with undying spirit.

I know we can. 

 P.S.  this injury is drawing tremendous amt of patience from me. Depressing.

 P.P.S.  and i Thank God for bringing me out of the ditch that i walked right into, for clearing my clouded vision, for calming my unsettling emotions.